The 4 Elements. Then & Now

                                                                                  BS”D

The 4 Elements. Then & Now.

 

My soul was yearning

for my guf (body) to be submerged

in the ocean;

the yearning to tovel in a mikvah

was perplexing

(some years after menopause);

I immersed into the deep

and emerged with a renewed appreciation for mikvah

exhilarated and rejuvinated

heart and soul.

 

I have a little garden

and bird feeder

on my tiny marpeset (balcony);

It gives me nachas ruach (peace of mind)

observing sublime creation

emerging life

emanating Divinity.

 

Being a city dweller

has sharpened my senses

to the 4 elements.

Urban living has strengthened my emunah

Initially born as a survival technique

And gradually bolstered to emes (truth)

as each season turned…

 

I grew up in a insular shetle in New England

(my great-grandfather was one of the original founders)

and spent my childhood summers

on the beaches of Nantasket and Cape Cod;

It was charming and glorious

though I was not cognizant of the beauty

that was encompassing my be-ing;

I was blessed with boundless love

and physical pleasures

an American dream.

 

My childhood was endowed with

endless hours alone

communing with nature

conversing intimately with the birds

scrutinizing the busy life of ants

building secret garden homes

and exploring Indian relics

in the vast forest in my backyard.

 

However my soul was in a constant state of yearning

from as far back as I can remember

in this spiritual desert;

encumbered with aloneness

and bewildered by my being different then my classmates

because of my Jewishness;

I was restless amongst the physicality

So began my journey in search of truth and meaning

I traveled the world and

moved to the big Apple.

Seeking and sinking into the metropolis

and becoming anonymous.

 

HERE my soul was fed

while attending elite college of Art

with intellectualism, culture, paintings, poetry, classical music,

eastern religions, zen, yinyang diversity;

I studied in Vienna

and my art was featured in eastside galleries

until… I had no dreams left to dream.

 

At that critical moment, B’H

Yakov meets Rachel Leah

My soul was led to its bashert,

my dear soul mate / husband

in the Lower East Side

and finally to Torah

for Shabbos in Crown heights.

 

We began our lives anew as balei tshuva

A new reality; new friends, new community

We raised our children for three decades B”H

based on a life and love of Torah

in a small corner of NYC

where a keen sensibility

to the 4 elements is being proactively sought and refined;

The ability to appreciate and respond

to the complexity of emotional and

aesthetic influences

touching each moment

with a constant G-d connection.

 

Recently, B”H, with the guidance of
my newfound mentors and soul sisters,

I have been gracefully immersed

in studying the pnimius of Torah;

A second pivotal elevation and tshuva in my life

A palpable Daas (consciousness) of

Ayn Od Milvado

 

The ocean is now so much more cleansing

the waves so much more in rhythm with my heartbeat

the sky so much bluer

the clouds so much more energetic

the leaves so much more greener

the wind so much more invigorating on my face

the candle flame so much more enlightening to my soul

the flower so much more exquisite and

witnessed as a kiss from H-Shem.

 

So I thank H-Shem every morning

with an awakened sense of neshima (breath)

and rebirth of the 4 elements

Modeh Ani Lefanecha Melech Chai Vikayam…

 

And with this revitalized vision

I immerse daily into the dark subway cacoon

transforming the heaviness of my guf

activating, stimulating Emunah

Shehechezarta bi Nishmasi Bchemla Raba Emunasecha.

and emerge as a light body.

LShem Shamayim❤

 

- RW, 12 Av 5779

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