Leil Seder: A Quantum Leap from Slavery to Freedom
From Avdus L’Cheirus
RABBI YAAKOV ZALMAN LABINSKY
Irises blossoming in Nisan in Hatzor HaGalil 5782
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Is it just PTED: post traumatic Egyptian Disorder?
The reality of avdus is very shtark
You will see an immense amount of servitude
How are we ever going to get out?
That is the chiddush of pesach night
We don’t deny the reality of avdus
We don’t just come out
The birth of cheirus is from the avdus
From the realm of miracle
Personal, national avdus
To go into it fully
Into the depths of the darkness
To be pulled out
Bhipazon
Lmaisa lmaisa
All of the avodas
I can personalize my own choshech
That thing that’s taking me from my Gdliness
My diminishment
Bringing me to the lowest places
Bringing me to 49 days of the omer
Then to Shavuos
We value what cheirus really means
Aligning ourselves with hkbh
We become merkavas
Unique to who we are.
Through the depths of avdus
Lfi kach at the end of maggid
Chayav kiulu …
A person is obligated to see themselves
Kol shana
Mamash hayinu kcholmim
Its true
In the psukim
Am I aware of my own enslavements, the things that prevent me from being my best me?
the things that hold me back are the epicenter
the inui part: do I have enough sense of my inner enslavements, can I label it.
Because they are very familiar to me. I cant imagine a life without that. Can I ever imagine leaving them. To be free.
Im done, its over! To your enslavement
I have no interest for you to be part of my life anymore
Lchachti: you are jumping into HKBH
Emunah based on knowledge
Stare it down
Go into it
With the awesome result
I don’t care how much history there is
Ive grown up feeling alone my whole life
The feeling of being alone is my best friend
I want to be coupled with someone
But the feeling of befriending my aloneness, I cant
GOALTI TO HALLEL:
Stage 2:
I have an inner resolve to say
Im leaving it all behind
I don’t want to have anything to do with it
FAITH BASED ON DEEP CHOCHMA
In the profound place not just my tatti is going to catch me
My freedom is born out of the avdus itself
We are very inwardly attentive
Get to the greatest levels of understanding
Leaping
We want to go into the realm of cheirus
Born out of the avdus
That’s vlkachti
The night of pesach
Is Emunah within emes
Working on your divine cheirus
It will surface and reveal
Sefirat ha omer
Shavuos night
Important real sustainable lasting way
Geula is a reality
Do you really believe in cheirus
Hashem says I want to go all the way with you
Do you want to go all the way with me.
Leave fully completely and whole heartedly
This allows us to couple with HKBH
Our tatti can take us out
We should be bold and courageous
And humble enough
Anything that diminishes our own sense
Can you pin down and label them of your enslavement
How would you map it out and leave it
After the seder: leave it into your new divine self
And keep moving into the higher place
Hallel: 65 shaim adnus
ADNUS / din
Enslavement is built in the creation
See it
Stare it down
That’s the miracle
Hashem want to grant it to us
If we are willing to go all the way
For ourselves and the world
This is impossible
Lfi cach
A person has to use their inner dimyon
To visualize
Their own enslavement
But marching forward
But at the right time you are going to leap
With Emunah
You have to imagine it
Live it through
At the end of maggid
Visualize it
Mourning the old avdus
Anticipating birth
Third cup
Into hallel
Here are the tensions
To the realness of avdus
And the yearning to cling to freedom
And HKBH
To live it, and become it
Anticipate a true zman cheiruseinu
Hayinu kcholmim
There… to live and go all the way with your dreams
Fully aware seder night
Your cheirus is essential for you
For the shechina itself
Outsource whatever you can
Prepare for this
Attach to tefilla
Hisbodedus
After the seder is over, living with cheirus begins
Is Emunah within emes
Emunah based on knowledge
The whole night is one hisbodedus
One thing that enslaves you
Label it
Make a list
All the things that it has diminished from me
Feel the depth of the tzar of being in that shibud
Feel the depths of the pain of your own enslavement
We cant underestimate the depths of our enslavement
Make a list
Resolve :I do not want this anymore
Strengthen the inner ratzon / techuka
What you want to run away from
What you want to run towards
By BORECH AND HALLEL
You know what the haggada is!
Ask a performer, you can know it well but when. You have to play it.
When its game time
It’s a whole different zach
The pnimius of the tefilla
Maariv
Its show time
You don’t start practicing now
Seder night show time
This is about your core cheirus
Theres more at stake
Whats on the line…
You can faint
I went to 3pm
Its not a spiritual competition
All the weeks was preparation
You have to be rested, and go into action
There will always be things that will not go right
Tzoar / dung = Emunah
Diamond in the dung
The secret of Emunah ha yichud
Emunah night
Here too hashem is to be found
The depth of the cheirus from the depth of the avdus
I need you to shteig
Your inner pnimius is as the seder
You are leaving mitzayim are you going to be part of the
20% who can leave with
Emunah peshuta and Emunah sheleima
Because the inner resolve of a soul has now bounds
Ha Leila hazeh
Leila feminine
Zeh masculine
Gaon
Dark is Emunah
Kedusha so great it has the reality of daytime
The Israeli army developed night glasses
When they battle at night
We put on the glasses of cheirus
We are not constricted.
Do you want it
Where is your bechira
Your inner ratzon
You cant just jump into seder night
Prepare like the chupa
First week is sheva Brachos
Now move on in their marriage unassisted
The week of chesed is done
Then the week of gevurah
We may be dreamers
But we are not naïve
We are not apologetic
The resolve we need on seder night.
Do the least amount of what you need to do
A women’s cheirus is essential.
Make the ikar l avdus lcheirus
Not one will do this process for you.
Take full ownership
We need to get to a bigger place
The stakes are climbing fast and furious
The labor is starting
We need to get this geuladik reality in the world
This cheirus is coupled with other people.
The shock and awe of what happens seder night
gives us the quantum leap to burst through enslavement