Finding Geula Within with Rav Kook

Shiur by Sarah Prijs / Shiviti
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BS”D

11 Cheshvan / Oct 29

News election

Protect our senses

So much negativitiy

We shouldn’t expose ourself to harmful stuff

Whats the idea of brit mila

Before Hashem makes the brit

First cut and then the brit

Kiddushin before nisuyin

Sefira of yesod

Sefira of the brit

Not men looking at women

We are choosing what we are bonding with

Avraham: his design

What about Yishmael’s purpose

That he would bring the one infinite Gd to the whole world

Where Avraham will be focus inward

You are not constricted the expansiveness

You are channeling it

Naturally we want to know whats happening in the world

A natural knowing

The brit

Don’t just spill potention

Don’t just connect to everything

Choose what you are bonding to

Davka not needing to bond with everthing

And enter that internal space

Yesod haAvoda

If youre doing inner work whats the foundation

The center is the inner knowing of Hashem

To clarify for the world and the person

The foundation is the emuna

That is constantly emerging

Clarifying to the whole world and to you

How exalted is the world and his creator

And of course the magnitude between a person and the creator

This experiential knowing

Of how deep our intrinsic connection is with Hashem

All the resources of evertything we want

This deep knowing

This knowledge comes forth

And within ourselves

It imprints its seal

In our bitachon

Ahava, dveikut, oneg

In the pleasure and deep yearning of all of our desires

Of the LIVE elokim

The aspect within nature that is alive

The desire and joy

Is feeling Hashem within nature

Our lives

The impact on our ahava and our yira

Begin with this deep Emunah

Our experience of THE KNOWING

THAT WE ARE INTRINSICALLY AND EXALTEDLY

CONNECTED TO HASHEM

What if our inner world doesn’t see it this way?

What if you aren’t always connected?

Emuna comes in the dark

This experience I have within me

Even if I don’t understand

My neshama knows

BY DEFINITION

AYN OD MILVADO

There has to be an Emunah with me

A place where I can go to

My intrinsic connection

 The universal content

Has an essential existence

And there yeshut

The IS-NESS

In its source

Has an inner essence

But the content in our life

That’s mundane

And tameh blocked

Has no essential character

Doesn’t exist and have an essence of taiva

Its own ratzon

Rather its just an external pushing of extential things

Of illusions

That distract you from its essence

The power the chiut of the emotion

Outside the content of it

Is so connected to the lifeforce of everything

So deeply bound with elokut

That we can see it from this chitzoniut

Whats the light

The potency of what I am experiencing

Whats the I WANT

UNDERNEATH

I WANT SOMETHING

The experience of Is-ness

How to approach the experience of a yerida

To understand

Even when it feels so real

Is just the harsh shell

To experience you to Hashem

No matter what falling

Is just a harsh shell

That contains

Hashem

When we move through constriction

If we go through it with the intention

We are finding Hashem

Our experience of Hashem is a whole new Torah

The nature of accessing the light

Likutei moharan

What is the hiddenness of the hiddenness

What part of hashem is hidden within there

THE SOD OF SODOT

The most profound aspect of hashem

We find them by shedding the harsh shell of perception

Why don’t we choose to do a sin if we can do teshuva mahava afterward

 We are creating more of an illusion

If we were to stop the ratzon

Before I want…

That is tefilla

We spend the whole day wanting

TAKE THE RATZONOT BACK TO HASHEM

TEFILLAH

Is elevating it to the infinity of Hashem

HR: if you pause you can feel

Negativity

And feel “I don’t have the best intention”

It can be an old wound

Can be conosiurs

Of these wounds, they want to be freed

Or hashem turns up the volume

…

On anxiety and weakness

Sometimes we feel weak

I don’t have the power and strength right now

We are familiary with anxiety

We look to geula

They are a signs of a state that is going to the content of gadlus

Mochin dkatnus: thinking right now. Im in the distraction of live

Mochin dgadlus
expanded consciousness

The sense of weakness and axiety and working toward gadlus

Gadlut itself is strengthening through weakness and anxiety

This anxiety to trust

As we are re-jigging the system

World and self

As we are moving toward gadlut

It doesn’t let any part of us stagnate

The inner soul level currents

Are running like a large raging river

Because all our neshamas

Want a constant state of shalom

And therefore because everything is getting jigged

From constriction to expansion

Our soul just wants peace

It binds within ourself

This constant storming ourselves

Its this movement of everything being jigged toward gadlut

The inner storyness

Is being manifested through this sense of anxiety

Your neshama just wants peace

But if we tap into our weakness / anxiety of the worlk

Mamkeihen

What are you REALLY EXPERIENCING

EVEN AT THE SAME TIME OF THE STORMYNESS

LIES THE INNER TRUST

We get scared of our anxiety

The thoughts are stressing you out

Instead of going out

Go in

And you will recognize the movement

Of internal trust

In the external world it feels like anxiety

Its almost the feeling

Of rabbi nachmans lech lecha

When you are struggling with the earthliness

You discover the place

Where your neshama is carved

Through the constrictions

Even our yeridot

Theres a midda emerges

Theres an I

That’s going through it

In itself theres a new depth

That is awakened

This yesurim

When you are under all the stuff

In the grave

Your chesronot

Or lack of Torah

The pain of Im not there right now

IM NOT IN DEVEIKUS

Its like the cleansing FIRE

THAT CLEARS OUT THE NESHAMA

From there the soul wants to GAZE AT THE NESHAMA

OTHERWISE WE ARE IN THE

IM OK I GUESS

I used to know how to connect to you

Meditate

This awakens the deep knowing of Hashem

That’s what awakens our knowing that we are intrinsically connected to hashem.

The state of

Rejection of spirituality in the world

Rejecting Gd

So many people are like

No thank you

Sometimes we have days we don’t get it

We cant reach the heights we’ve reached

When a person feels destroyed

In your spiritual growth

Know that the time has come

To build a new building

That is more stable and glorified

Than the first

That building was destroyed because you have a new one to build

You strengthen yourself

I HAVE A NEW BUILDING

TO BUILD

IN TIKKUN OF MY ACTIONS

IN a beautiful order

And a newfound courage of heart

With a clear desire

And a heart with an inner joy

Because Hshem is GOOD AND STRAIGHT

He teaches his depth to those who have been humbled

To the same extent

That your inner mussar

You are refining the sense of torah

And it gets sharper

You also start to see your own nakedness

Blocks and constrictions that are not fixed

And this inner bitterness of your sould

Your state in Torah that is not being developed is overcoming within you

Until it is sooooo bitter

As you become sensitive to how big Hashem is

My blocks are so big

Bitterness

But with all of this

Anyone with a straight heart could understand

HOW TO RECEIVE THIS SPECIFIC TCHONA

It brings you to precious middot

And characteristics of clarity

Gives you clarity

To where your avoda is going

And what you can bring to Hashem

We get bogged down in the bitterness

Im so far

The fact you know you are far…

The part of you that knows how far you are

Is the part you know where you can fix

Most people don’t have the emuna that you can harm

Lkalkeil

And it pains you that you are fallen

That same Emunah builds you us

This spiritual quality that allows you to feel broken

Is the same quality you have to open to new heights.

If you have fallen

Because of you weakness

I am far

Pay attention in your heart

Put your heart on this fact

In the very depths of this ocean

From there

One must draw up the most precious pearls

That can only be found there

The ratzon

And experience of wanting Hashem so deeply

If we realize how powerful that gem is

Go into that ratzon

That in itself will open us up

The knocking of geula

The soul knocking

He will return and elevate his strength

With new serenity

The light of the world

From the Ohr Kedem

This principal applies in the whole generation

Withing the falling lies the biggest chance to rectify

Rabbi Jonathan Sacks

Before Brexit.

The country was in shambles

What do you think and what leader do we need.

The point now is not what happens to Brexit

Are we going to have a leader that took a constricted state and shows a new light

When a nation is doing well

Theres no capacity to show whats possible

But in ourselves

When we face all the nefilot

It opens me up to not what is my state in the nefila

But

What is BIGGER

Experience of being in the downfall

This nefila and externals

Is revealing a deeper inner desire

When all the thoughts are totally overcoming you

And you are under pressure

Because of the beauty of you experiencing

Your own world in your own way

And you are mamash not good

Don’t be a rasha in your own eyes

From this SUBJECTIVE EXPERIENCE

WE CAN GET TOTALLY SWALLOWED UP

A person can take you away in the bitterness

And you can feel far

NO

This experience itself

This inner storms did not come for any other reason

Didn’t come to uproot your dveikus

The gesher

This experience of feeling so low

Is the bridge taking us from

Our constricted reality

To this new stronger place

We DON’T WANT TO GO BACK

COVID

Naase vnishma

Every time we go through the yerida

Has to be constricting otherwise it wont be constricting

A new OLAM IS OPENING UP

WHEN WE DON’T KNOW

WE ARE OPEN TO EVERYTHING

….

This is the gog umagog

Before geula

I had this dream… I visualized this cup

You start in the foundation

It wont actually hold anything in the base

It feels open and great

Then we go into this constriction

It feels my entire being is getting constrictied

As you are going through the glass

As we emerge from it

We emerge into a vessel

To something we can hold to hold

Whatever it is we want to hold

Its better to be in the vessel

Hashem I used to know you

Whats going on

Youre BEING SQUISHED

THE FIRE THAT CLEANSES YOU

IF WE JUST HAD Avraham Yitzchak and Yaakov

That consciousness wouldn’t have lasted

They had to go through the cor habarzel

Mitzrayim

The model of the next geula

But when your whole building is getting destroyed

Then the vision

Is so bigger

Rw:

So apropos in this world of covid

Of not knowing

Of uncertainty

Of unpredicablity

What we attach our thoughts to all day

May hashem

Mamash

For us

You are going to sense your nefilot

The parts you don’t like much stronger

That we have the Emunah to metaken

That we see it as a bridge to a bigger world

We are willing to go inside the experience

To really hold us

And transform us

The whole world will be covered with this consciousness

The healing of our very souls and hearts

And may we see it as a channel to something much bigger

All the unknowing is a just an opening

The whole world is in an unknowing

Whatever the constriction is

That the constriction is a bridge

To the new world

Oct 22 / 4 cheshvan

Your neshama in some kind of way

That’s deep

Already within this

Is turning to geula

The fact that it is expressing itself

The light of yeshua is ready to be revealed

AFTER THIS DARKNESS

Its not to be scared of

OH MY NESHAMA IS TALKING TO ME

Look what it feels like to feel deep

That’s the joy and the light

That doesn’t have a vessel yet

Its expressing itself

This yeshua comes in a connective reality

It is allowing the yeshua to come

If you listen to it

YOU ARE ALREADY BRINGING THE YESHUA

The fact that we feel this way

We are definitely in the world right now

THE WORLD IS KNOCKING

THE NESHAMA OF THE WORLD

I WANT MORE

I KNOW THAT I WANT SO MUCH MORE

People don’t want to go back to life before corona

I want ULIMATE SAFETY

ULTIMATE HEALTH

THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT GEULA

THEY DON’T KNOW IT YET

These things exist

Within the individual person

And they exist in the entirety of our nation

Its expressed and manifest in differently

Why is it mainly happening

In the collective

These states are being revealed

To those who think excellent thoughts

Machshavot: those conscious moment

That you suddenly see a new world

Seeing new insights come to them

Those are the people experiencing the neshama of the klal

Feeling the constriction

Listening TO THE REVERBERATIONS OF THE WHOLE WORLD

AND there are even some

This voice comes from withing

The aspect of the pain comes from looking at the klal

I don’t think everyone was worried about the whole world

Even people judging people for not keeping the rules

Not having the same political view

THEY ARE WORRIED ABOUT THE FUTURE OF THE KLAL

THE COUNTRY

The pain is stronger

The pain of the whole nation

Don’t be scared to go into the klaliut of the whole people

Before you daven

Connect to Am Yisrael

Theres enormous pain

Theres the constriction

Existentialy

Atzmaut hazot

THIS PAIN IN ITSELF IS ANNOUNCING THE GEULA

Its going and its coming

Its surging

Somehow tap into this process

Finding the parts of ourselves in this constriction

Moving from the whole world to the geula its announcing

Piaseczner

Lived geula in the galut

Even he has questions that I don’t have answers for

Rabbi Nachman

When you access the consciousness you can access geula

Going from no one being in deeper Torah; secular jews into it now.

Geula: POINTY IS THE HOPE LIKE THE “egg”

What if corona is the expression

If the geula doesn’t come

We are IN THE PROCESS

Seeing rav Kook

You need so much patience

So much ability to know it doesn’t happen at once

WE CAN ALL OPEN UP TO MOMENTS IN OUR LIVES

Every once in a while we see it

SAVLANUT FOR THE PROCESS

The ultimate geula: the inner state of consciousness

We feel rejected because no one sees our light

Theres this enormous light

Of what our soul is aware of

That’s our light of moshiach

When we are able to hold space

Bring out its gentleness

One day after the next

We bring our our OHR SHEL MOSHIACH

We activate moshiach in the physical world

Devorah: the oil and the water

The beauty: the first day

Unconscious connected to water

Divine presence hovers over the surface of the water

Light; was good. Gd separated from darkness

The earth and the heavens are together and not speaking to each other

The initial light going into the separation

Reverse

Now we are in the separation of light and dark

We are going back to Ohr echad

The choshech is only an illusion

We are in a paradox

We are in 2 things that came from nothing

They are totally separate

The part there is no COMMUNICATION

STAND WITH IT

DELVE INTO IT AND DRAW OUT treasures from it

Standing in the place

Come through it.

In the mabul

The maai tahur

The water from above

And the murkey waters from below

More conducive to tikkun

How to live our lives in the murky waters in the world

To merge with the geula

Doing the weird dance of living in both worlds

We find ourselves

This movement is expressing geula

Hanna roen: we notice darkness;

We put our attention on it is light

I don’t want to look at it

Its scary

This is hurting really bad

That attention is light

To sit and look at it and be objective

That’s the light

THE LIGHT IS THE KAV THAT TAKES THE LIGHT OUT OF HIDING AND BRINGS THE LIGHT TO KETER

See the emotion

To watch it

One of the main ideas in geula

The idea to see the chochma in the sechel

To experience the inner dimension

Every detail of whats going on

Whats the essence

That’s the way rav kook looked at the whole world

We can train ourselves

He say the nekuda tova

The whole world will be activated with that level of consciousness

The whole world will act with this nekuda tova

Rabbi Sutton

No: moshiach comes and

Hamtik: wait

But also the idea we are bringing the geula, the whole world is bringing daat

The waters covering the ocean

When you see the ruchniut

This relationship of everything that is

It fills your nefesh

It fills you with a love greater than your fear and awe

Fills you with serenity

More than bitterness

Or distress

Its one level to get there as an individual

Its harder as a nature

The neshama within us

We have these moment where we see it in our neshama

The klal

Is the whole inner world

To be able to bring up to the level of consciousness

That’s the hard thing

The idea of the people

In Israel

This desire for Elokut

Everything from the perspective of Hashem

Initially emerges in a negative way

In a rejection of torah

Rav Kook:

Sympatic Eloki

This sympathy with Gdliness and wanting to see everything

Our inner rejection

It doesn’t manifest in light

It initially appears in a negative light

It starts to drive out all the foreign things

That are not on a neshama connection

Perceptions of a world

Coming initially from the perspective

Of a HARSH THREATENING experience

Why would you want to put pressure on yourself

Not the truest perception of elokut

These threatening images are coming from all the FORCES

SHEL kabalat malchut shamayim

Coming from a place of a lack of Yirat harommemut

The clear of whole love

Of receiving malchut shamayim

The child of Avraham

The part we are coming from a love of Hashem

And according to the overwhelming rejection

Of these who are qualified in this

Machane hagadol

The next level of emergence

From the PEOPLE WHO KNOW HASHEM

THEY HAVE TO STRENTHEN THEMSELVES

WHERE THE ELOKUT

IS THE MOST INFINITE KEDUSHA

That part of us does the work

Process it all

That’s how we get to eretz yisrael

Ability to connect to the NEXT LEVEL

EVEN MORE REAL

THE BRING THE LIGHT

THAT’S PART OF US THAT IS ALREADY CONNECTED

WITH the parts that are struggling

The savlanut comes from BINA

THE MIDDA OF THE MOTHER

THE UNDERSTANDING AND DISCERNMENT OF THE HEART

Seeing chaos in the world

The pulse of the world

Sees whats going on

The next part

The ability to hold the womb for 9 months

Knowing

It happens naturally

Holding space to grow safely

Beyond our comprehension of that

All this drive to prove everyone else wrong

This kaas

NO YOURE WRONG

It comes up to us in our inner world

No! I have to show them the truth

That kaas is the left over of

Meei moriva

You rebellious ones

Evene when it ends up in a place of kedusha

Arguing in torah

The end is shalom

Lets shout at each other

The harshness of the words

Left and impact of the heart

ADINUT

This gentleness the subtlty of the the process

And let it be part of the process

Yoter mkol lashon ayn anachnu… stira

We are not able to bear the contradiction

And lack of soul level oneness of everything coming together

The peace and wholeness of unity

In their ideal form

Its just temporary

In the future it will all come to gether

We will become ONE NATION

THE whole annoyance

Why cant everyone

Mevaseret geula

Announceing the design to become one

Silver: when bad people come together

The tower of bavel; they are just coming together; they are not doing anything bad; however when good people come together even when theres no consciousness and effort.

We can get there by being together

A vision of hope

Me:

The ability to see the inner dimension

To see people screaming at each other

They are BOTH SEEING A BETTER WORLD

Protests: they are blowing the shofar

They don’t even know what they want

They are screaming for it

For ATZILUT

THE THING THEY ARE FIGHTING FOR

NO ONE SHOULD WEAR MASK

EVERYONE TO WEAR THEIR MASKS

WE CAN see the world like rav kook

Man working out

Preparing body for geula

Last paragraph of orot ha

The revelation of the harmony

Ner ha elyon

That is revealed in all its details

It rises and falls

The harmful parts, its scatteredness

Its light and its darkness

Within all

From all

And all

Within us and am yisrael

And everything outside

Everything is incorporated within its essence

It leads and it centers

It illuminates

And the highest vision

The life force with everything

Illuminating the light of all the nefesh

The pleasure of all the worlds

The craving of every creation

The hope of every action

A nation that all the outcome

All the results of everything

Is in all the nations

The creation from the beginning to the end

Every fall

Every disconnect

Is revealing this essence

The delight of the delights

Within the spirit of every creation

All the pleasure

Of the light of eternity

And the systems

All go in the present

The ruach echad

And within every neshama is always ringing

All centered there

Whether revealed or hidden

Yeshuat olamim

The yeshua of the lifeforce of all the world

And the beauty and appearance of the clarity of light

Within the neshama of all existence

The light is within the darkness

In our experience its totally separate

Sometimes it feels there is no communication

The kol

It all existes

The raa vtov

Even the content of the raa doesn’t reflect its essence

The way klal yisrael reflects its essence

The collective soul of the jewish people

The whole geula

Will elevate the parts

And enter them

Let us no be intellectual

May this be our reality

No matter what part of the jewish people we experience

That we find that space withing

In the KNOWING

IT IS ALL HASHEM

APPRECIATING WHAT ALL HAS TO GIVE

NOT BE scared to enter all Israel

The geula in this learning

Awakens something in us

We can shift the world

Rav Kook - Nov 12

Orot hakodesh

Expression of our Active Ratzon

Gazing in a wonderous way at the RATZON of a human

It’s a rich spiritual light

That embraces many strengths and outcomes

A deeply powerful thing

We don’t experience it with our 5 senses

It’s a light that flies with such wondrous vigor

It takes us to the depth

And to the heights of the heavens

It takes us down and constricts

Until there’s no way to tell how constricting

But when our ratzon expands us

It is limitless

When you see its many different rays and branches

All the Hod and Tiferet and Gevurot, chama yeshut and the atzmut

Everything is embraced within it

This expanse

Of understanding its essence to its core

To the heights of kedusha

We experience it so powerfully

The neshama of hashem

Is pumping into our ratzon

It’s clear

It belongs to a deeper realm

Because it’s so strong

When you feel connected

It’s so strong

My heart is awake

AWAKE THE RATZON

Libi ayr Kudsha brich Hu

THE DEEP RATZON

Is the connection to HKBH within us

We have the powerful ratzon

That takes us to the deepest heights and depts

This ratzon that we experience

In its very nuclear form

The nucleus

Within it is absorbed the constriction

From the highest ratzon

Ohr haolamim

The ratzon is from beyond

When its banded in the constriction

Its source is still planted

Within the highest lights

And when we realize our ratzon

Connect with the ratzon at every given moment

Is tapped into the ratzon of hashem

In the world

The beyondness

We get elevated with it

And we elevate it

We elevate our ratzon

The frustration of I can’t deal with life

Because I want more

ITS OPEN

AND ITS LIKE

I WANT MORE

And the ratzon releases

Then we grasp life

And theories of meditation

And it impacts our middot

Elevating them.

When we experience our constricted form of ratzon

We can take it to its highest form

It’s so deep

To the deepest highs and lows

When we tap into the power

Of the infinite ratzon of the world

Tefilla

I am taking my ratzon

WHY DO I WANT THIS

HASHEM WHAT DO YOU WANT

When we start to dissect this ratzon

Why do I want this healing?

What does hashem want

Tapping into the might

That ratzon has

Not like a feeling like any other emotion

(thinking of Ella’s ratzon “I want my mommy NOW) Constricted face

and whole trembling of body)

Rabbi Jonathan Sacks

Replace the word I with we

I’m scared

We are scared

In hitbodedut

Hashem We feel so far

Taking it one step to WE

DH: RATZON

1. Precursor to tefilla

2. And also tefilla

Babies want and cry

So you rock

And baby cries like this and like that

Zahava: so many relationships with hashem

Instead of davening please let this crisis be fixed

Instead of my want

What is your ratzon

Not what I want

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Step 1 is taking it to Hashems realm

The power of your ratzon

The active ratzon expands

It overcomes your whole being

The thing that expands the ratzon

Is when you intend to fill the ratzon with hashem

It’s not just this desire

It’s like holding a kli

And Hashem is filling it

When I’m in the expansion

And I find

And tap into the depth of it

And the ratzon of the whole world

And hashem

I enter dveikus

When I express my ratzon

You make it clearer

You are expressing the RATZON

OF HASHEM IN THIS WORLD

When hashem blew his soul into us

THE WORDS THAT COME OUT

IN A STATE OF ONENESS

Is hashem talking to us

The ratzon of Hashem

Is able to be expressed in this world

Tefilla is literally active

Hashems ratzon to my ratzon

KEFIRA

SOME people think it can change hashems ratzon to mine

Instead

I take the depth of my ratzon

When I enter dveikus

I GET WHAT HASHEM WANTS

I take the depth of what I want

Take it all the want

What does hashem really want

It transforms the reality of the world

We walk through the day with constant wants

Why do I want connection

It is the experience of hashem

And go more abstract

But its more real

It stops being about me

It’s about connection

We want connection

And You want it too

It’s no longer about me

I want my zivug

To manifest your ratzon in this world

Technique

My ratzon is deeper

RATZONCHA IS RATZONI

Geula

From the state of dveikus

The words

The sound waves never end

They command

You are creating as you speak

Are you creating your nefesh behamis

When I am tapped into dveikus

I am choosing to live in a world

The reason why I want this

Is manifested in a deepest ratzon

I want and want and want

I want the deveikus and its frustration

The want is the depth of the chius of my neshama

IS ALL THAT IM LONGING FOR

Woah I’m experiencing powerful at that moment

This feels alive

Whatever it is

Feels deeply connected

What if it deeply connected

From a deep state

What does the world want and I sense it with my being

My physical want

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The same state

Of the greatness of the light of love

Ohr habracha elyona

My thirst for hashem

How can I live my day more

What would my thoughts be like when I’m in touch

What’s more in touch with my deeper ratzon

You can use this core ratzon

To make decision

How you want to engage in this world

Orot

It’s impossible to find a state

Where you soul can rest on

Other than the Gdly air

Bohr haElokut

And all our inner movements tnuoo-ot

All of our inner emotions

Are all trying to take us to Elokut more

When they become more Gdly

Their relationship

What is the common denominator between fear and joy

Our dimyon, the tree

THEY EXIST

HAVAYA

THEY ALL ARE IN THE MOST INFINITE WAY OF BEING

When I connect to the is-ness

My thoughts and chair are Gdly

Inner and outer movements

Connecting to that

Gives me Yishuv haDaas

If a person seeks

Even A LITTLE LESS THAN THIS GREATNESS

Immediate you are distraught

Like a ship in stormy waves

Crashing into each other

Gal mgal constantly trying to get you down

Once wave after another

And you are not going to know what’s yours

Sometimes the fog of our inner world

Manages to get us down

But not bogged down for too long

Your inner knowing of something more

Will extricate itself from its prison

And the crazy slinging movement inside of you

Will begin its power

The only place we can really rest is with hashem

Isn’t Hashem beyond this reality

Anything inside of our emotions

These Godly feelings don’t fit into our physical moments

Life comes up

I get stuck in the stormy sea

Anything above the feeling within us

In relation to us

Is nothingness

If you don’t have anything to grasp

HOW CAN WE REST OUR INNER BEING?

You will find many people

Mvakshei hashem

They are tired

The 2 worlds don’t come together

When the neshama is craving

For a light that’s brighter

It’s not going to make do

With the light found in righteousness

Good actions

Light found within the truth

Clear higher torah

Your desire for Hashem is higher than all of these things

The whole world comes into this inyan

This way of seeing

The whole world

Your desire is strong and expansive within you

In all the gashmiut and ruchniut

Revelations

To you it’s just one big house is stifling

Because you ratzon is beyond all of it

Even learning torah, and mitzvot

Don’t fill us

They want something greater and higher than their ability

Something in relationship to them is nothing

There is nothing within

Even the ability TO WANT THE WANT

To want the depths of your inner ratzon

Sometimes our constant search gets weakened

It weakens the strength and life force

What do we do?

Enter the gate

The Elokus

The Gdliness revealed in the world

In all its beauty and splendor

In every insect, flower, nation, kingdom

In the canopies of the skies

The luminaries

The strengths and talent within every conversation

The writings of every author

The music of composer

The thoughts of every thinker

The strengths of every hero

It seems to be beyond us

To be gathered in its light

And we are not close to feeling our craving

It falls into our essence

This desire for Elokus

Comes into us in a powerful way

We start to find it and enjoy it

In the love of the world

In its peace and its rest

Sometimes you have a moment

And you feel hashem in the deepest way that is beyond you

A temporary state

The lightning will exchange

We will again fall back to living in the

Courtyards of Hashem

And when the demands for this light

Come to its highest

Its starts to draw from the shefa

Of the Ohr Haganuz

From the insides of the world

From the inner light

Start to see all the world

That which you seek

The netzitzot within every idea

Within our lives

The shefa is flowing within all the goodness

It elevates the source of our neshama to its heights

That makes the spiritual and physical world

Smaller it its eyes

All its harmony and beauty within the physical

START TO SING THE SONG

The beauty of it

Not just an external manifestation

Reveals in it all the world

All the creations

We see the world differently

Because we see the Elokut

All the learning expanding consciousness

All the constrictions

No longer push against the expansiveness of the neshama

It starts to see the sparks of Elokut

Our reactions and emotions

Elevate

And all get bound up

In the binding of full life

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I feel my ratzon constricting me

The Gdliness I seek

Is way beyond my level

My middos aren’t there yet

But I have this deep yearning

But my middos are not there yet

On the way to the ultimate Elokus

Bound in hashem

We find Hashem in the poetry and conversations

The reason why everything seems so deep

It is so deep

I TAP INTO THE CHIUS WHICH MAKES MY RATZON SO STRONG

I TAP INTO THE VITALITY OF EVERYTHING

You feel a little of ratzon

When I tap into that, I can see the thing that I want in a new light

A greater more infinite vision what the world needs

Ie. Technology

When that many people put there daas and chius into one thing for that amount of time

As more of the world puts their daas on it

The world reveals Elokus

The animals in the time of noach picked up on this frequency

When we open up this consciousness

Geula

The seasons will shift the physicality will shift

When it will be enlivened

Pesach illuminate like the light of day

Different seasons that emerged after the flood

Before the flood there was only spring time

In geula there will be only spring: Sforno

Umale Haaretz deah of Hashem

The world itself will be reflecting and resonating the light of Hashem

Feld’s class on mincha

Today’s parsha. Yitzchak

Hashem appreciates mincha the most

You have to stop your day

Tefilla

May the desire for the whole world seeking

In the constriction and expansion

May we feel expanded in our ratzon

May we see a world of Elokut

And the whole world has the depth

Tapping into the ratzon

DH: a state of thirst

The whole idea is I am going to be in thirst that keeps me moving

Thirst can’t be judged

Judgement comes where I think I am satisfied

We will think thirst is a limitation

Elokus

If you are just worried about the thing that is beyond

But tap into the pathway

The derech to eretz yisrael is tapping into creation

The world think we are all thirsty

Healing is not taking away the ratzon

Its searching for it deeper and deeper

We want ratzon

How do we know it smells like gan eden

The thirst

Something in us knows what thirst is

And what drinking

Rav Kook 11-19
Orot Eretz Chofetz

[Segol: the inner point: 17 min rav menussi https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXCQJWyko-c]

Ort:You can hide it

But impossible to uproot it from its source

Am kadosh: holy nature

Keeping the mitzvot that bind us to Hashem

And it comes to revelation through our physical actions

We are expressing the segula

There are neshamot

So low in the area of their choice

What makes a jew do mitzvot

Therefore they are involved in broken off negative actions

Destructive opinion, hashem yishmareinu

Nevertheless the light of this spiritual quality is illuminated within them

He experienced a generation that was building EY

What makes them involved in such a thing.

Tikkunei Zohar tov mlifnim vra mmchutz

Deep holiness

On an external level it is not expressed

Something with such a deep power and not expressed

Its hard in eretz hakodesh

Hanna Roen: trauma to embrace a block. And starts davening etc

Any Jewish soul naturally embraces Judaism unless there are old traumas

If they are healed they draw back to Judaism

The idea of segula of eretz yisrael

Is beyond practical ideas of the jewish people

Therefore it becomes more important

To connect to EY

To the segula that is within us

That is expressed through the Torah of EY

My neshama gets a dive into itself

OROT ERETZ HEIFETZ

Eretz Yisrael is not an external reality or acquisition for the nation

Its not the just to strengthen the physical or spiritual existence of the Jewish people.

8:47

EY is the most essential division that is bonded with life itself with a nation

It embraces within it all the spiritual qualities in its very being.

Goal to bring together all entirety. NO! this is way deeper then you can ever understand.

Here it is a Gdly knot from the source of kedusha

The all encompassing souls of the jewish people of the land of its pleasure

This holy seal

Prominent through the illumination of the highest Gdliness

We were just sojourning there.

From the depth beyond our being

When we are sleeping we are not in daas

The ohr haganuz is deeper

The 36 lights of kislev

Kol haTorah kula of EY

His chiddush

I get caught : just go to the kotel

Sometimes I feel it sometimes I don’t

What!?

Even your feeling of disconnection

Is the deepest reality

Its impossible to start

To begin to understand its ineffable quality

And bring out the action with our love for it with any kind of human understanding or rationalization

But only through the spirit of Hashem.

From the sense we have within us

Any depth we can ever access

So whats stopping people from seeing this?

GALUT

SEEING THING THROUGH NOT HAVING DAAS

IF YOU HAVE DAAS YOU YOUR IN GEULA: Rabbi Nachman

The recognition of EY comes in a blurred form

From the secret of the experience of Hashem

The deepest highest spiritual qualities of the depths of Gdliness

Turn into devarim tefalim

Delinieated in the sod hashem

EY

Of course you are going to like the spiritual quality you need with the challenges that brings

This is the basis of the understanding of the shitta of EY

You are seeing it on a surface level

Its so in our essence of being of who we are in our deepest essence

If you are not on that level of Torah

How can you think of APPROACHING EY

It’s a game changer when accessing geula

The world wasn’t ready yet

We are moving toward it

Rav Moshe Weinberger said, the world needs it NOW.

When we are learning torah on a surface level

Promise land of Canaan.

Oh that’s just the psukim I saw about the canaanim

We need the sod hashem

When the torah is promising eretz chlav udvash…

If you’re not in daas

Then extra food and shefa will not only take you to an elevated place

Will take you to a place of laziness to a bad place

Negative culture

If we are on an elevated place of daas

Romamut hanefesh

To the purpose of the heights of the soul

That elevates a nature above

What was hashem telling the avot

I am promising you this is a blessing

The promise of it being a land flowing with milk and honey

Every physical pleasure is kedusha

Rambam taking food and elevating it

Why is it called Eretz Canaan?

The most cursed the source of animal lowliness nature

Eretz yisrael. Yisod mitgaleh haalom

That part of the spiritual quality of EY you are able to take that was the most gross, blocked and stuck to elevated it to the hightest heights.

Why is this the case?

What are all the most disconnected parts of life

That’s where the highest lights are hidden

It becomes negative because we don’t have the light to access it

In EY we are able to access the light there.

An avodah for us in and out of EY

To dream of what EY is.

Here in EY. No matter what background they are in

There neshama brought them to EY. We need to search for the spark again

Remember where we are and who we are

The neshama of Knesset yisrael when we get to the achdut of EY

If we understand what Jewish meant!

11-26

BS:D

11-26

Rav Kook

TheDrunkenness of externality

The thoughts that come from the externality of the world

It’s easy to say I’m a pnimius person

A lot of our day we are judging based on externals

What it looks like and feels light

These thoughts take a person to a mistaken consciousness

Even the more elevated ones

There’s a taut a mistake

We are drunk on the externality of the world

And most of the world is handed over to this drunkenness

Only the refugees

Who manage to escape

The wise ones

This part of us

The elevated holy ones

That they investigated and infiltrate

The power of their thoughts

To the inner being

They dissipate this drunkenness

With this elevated skill

And the more they really get

Chut hamamsicha

The seal of the ruchani haelyon

The more they print the seal in the world it

Goes forth and illuminates the inner light

And instead of drunkenness

Appears the light of the joys of delight of holiness

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seeing things from an external perspective

Not involving yourself

Deeper

The external IS THE internal

The drunkenness is the perception of us seeing only the external

Subtlety is that

Ie eretz yisrael

Does it matter if its nature or not

You are told you are your soul not your body

And yet we know as we enter geula

The body is elevated

The problem is when we separate physicality and ruchnious

It’s a continuum

It’s not separate

The world I know and then my soul

When we separate them

The physical feels super mundane

SEE IT THROUGH THE LIGHT OF KEDUSHA

ASPAKLARIA VISUAL

Aspaklaria:

Neviim because they clarified themselves

Moshe rabein there was no self

Through the looking glass of kedusha

Start seeing the mundane the external

Through the looking glass

Through the perception of kedusha

In truth there is no such thing as absolute mundane

Once you go to the essence you have touched its soul

And then you start to see

When you are measuring kodesh lechol

There’s kedusha

There’s chol

The higher holy light from the infinite source

You experience the divine light

Not a random concept in my brain

You are tapped into the essence of what that means

When you see the world

As something no essentially mundane

And all the values come together

And the universal unity

Comes clear

Your actions become more mighty and spiritual

With the foundation of a higher life

When you are building something kodesh

It has to be built on the foundation of the physical / mundane

Chol is just the physical structure

The physical mass of kodesh

And kodesh is what defines the inner dimension of the physicality

And in anything that the physicality is more powerful

Powerful part of life

Spirituality has to be so much higher

The chiut within it is ever more powerful

Chomer v tzura model

Energy and matter are created

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Lg: there’s not hevdel between the CHOMER AND THE TZURA

Through the lens

How deep we can tap into it.

Why do we ben hamavdil ben koshesh lechol

Period between yom kippur and sukkot

For a moment there is no difference

4 days in between

The hevdail is the capacity to tap into that level

Shabbat: the whole energy is the core

The mitzva of zechira Shabbos is for every day

There’s a consciousness of shabbat all week

In order to tap into the kedusha

We need to be honest with ourselves

There’s an essence of shabbat during the week

THERE’S A BEING WITHIN THE DOING

If you can go into the most mundane

And tap into it

Shaar hashamayim

The ladder that goes up

The gate to the spiritual realm that is in this world

Rabbi Nachman

THE LITTLE THAT HOLDS A LOT

Everyone trying to prove

I have one seed, I have one piece of land, I have one little mind

No that’s like a rubbish heap lol

The final one the beggar

He lives on just the edge where physicality meets spirituality

Asking ourselves as what I see in my life that is not Gdly

How do I tap into it

We need the hamavdil ben kodesh lechol

Rw.

learning the 39 melachos on an elemental level

Is tapping into the kedusha of the physical

Meruka

The world is not separated

We are not building a new structure

The vision to be able to tap into

This is so needed now with corona

Rabbi David arons describing the definition of holy is more than holy

If you designate something to be holy

You designate it as part of Hashems achdut

The orot shel moshiach

When I see anything in the world

I am designated it to its divine course

It transforms all that is

We are being demanded from the depths of our souls to feel this greatness

Even in the minute rays of lights

Because these lights that are still very faint

Are constantly becoming smaller

Even before the big saturation of the highest lights

Tapping into the deeper consciousness

Our neshamas are demanding we find those

If we only hold on to the measurement

Of galut

Will remain in this designated state

It is incumbent of us to do

To grasp the big light

From the light of geula

Even from the beginning of its nuclear appearance

The sense that we have that we just want to tap into something more expansive

Be willing to grasp the desire

What is this light?

Clarified out within the physicality

The nefesh betoch basar

The elevation of the values of all of life

The light of the holy of holies

The designation of all the designations

Within all of the movements of the IS

In everything that IS THERE IS A MOMENT

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You are yearning for the big light

You have to enter the gate

The skill that is required for every conversation

The thoughts of every composer

Ie the floor of my house

Or this is the ground that holds me up

It’s quite a trip

Definitely in these times

We get caught up in the constriction

If we are willing

There’s an opening

I’m feeing this weird feeling

And I can tell you

WOW THERE’S A DYNAMISM IN MY SYSTEM

AND SEEING THAT AS PART OF A BIGGER PICTURE

WOW THE diversity of the day

The power I put into my day is G-dly

Sometimes we need reminders

For me its 3 words of rav kook!!

That’s this state that we are trying to enter

We are bearing witness to that movement

But it’s at the risk of appearing weird

That space feels unhinged (devoid of being grounded)

A trip! Be in this world / drunken

There’s a sense.. when I’m grounding something; I’m tending to make it not spiritual

Let me sit down here

There reason we have to bring it down

I’m HERE IS THE MOST HOLY THING IN THE WORLD

WHEN I SEE THE ELOKUT IN MY FLOOR

When I see that within the physical

I see the inner Gdliness

Hamtaka

The space of geula: be with all of the energy

It will be so integrated that there will be no difference

Rw: the question how do we be in this world

I’m at a meal with my kids

And I’m not thinking the thoughts

As I’m eating my food I am just enjoying my kids

Just appreciating theirs smile

You are embodying the light in the moment

Geula that is not

Because its 2 separate things

Conversation not taking about spiritual things

Cleaning the house

Moments where we sense it

The inner geula

I don’t need to be thinking the thoughts of the ground

To know so deeply

I’m scared of the physicality because it’s so mundane

For years we’ve been engaged in the physical

We were washing and taking care of the kids

We start to feel the song and poetry as we are doing it

We go and come out

Orit: a place we are deeply understanding

This social anxiety doesn’t exist anymore

Everything becomes me before Gd

There are infinite gradations

There’s a benchmark for redemption

We can all reach

To engage with each other

We will so well be integrated

Enjoying hkbh within our relationships

Me: social anxiety at the gathering

The closer I get to the integration

Where is the anxiety

It’s a whole different world

Its EMUNAH I’ve been in a state of katnut

DH: Rabbi Nachman piece

6:3

Running and returning is essential

Getting GOOD AT FALLING

It talks about getting better at it.

This is the parsha

The angels going up and down

Malachim up the ladder to the highest place in our soul

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It comes from our soul contains the deepest lights

The flames of harmony contained within our soul

To move us forward

Toward a state

Towards integration

The inner dimension

Emunat hanistar

Fall back the nun into Cheshvan

Samech of kislev

Falling back into hashem

Enter the space

Social anxiety

I’m with hashem

Seeing through the lens of hashkacha

Sometimes you feel your daat is poor

And you can’t connect to spirituality

Connected to the spiritual resources

Nevertheless you should imburse yourself

From the sense of the higher waters

Even reading rav kook

The higher deeper Torah

Then your spirit returns to you

You turn into a flourishing wellspring

(from a stopped wellspring)

When we are stuck into the drunkenness of the external

Find a deep Torah

The secrets of Torah

Kabbalah needs to be an integrated part

Not separated out

You need all of it together

The goal

The revelations of the secrets of torah

The content of kedusha is hidden within them

They cause the ruach of hadam

To be minimize and reduces his ambitions

And you become impoverished

Just dealing with the mundane stuff

We are experiencing the spirituality being remove

The tiredness

The secrets of torah

Elevate your spirit

And you start having THIS EXPANSIVE VISION

AND DREAM EXPANSIVE DREAMS

AND WHAT YOU ARE ASKING FOR

Becomes elevated

On a collective level

And you open up chassidus

And your soul is revived

Imagine that happening as a nation

This is what all of the razei torah are

Kabbala was never about understanding interconnections with your mind

With a rational human intellect

Rather you go through kabbala

Receiving

Receiving from someone who it feels so good to receive from

Feels cozy

THAT’S WHAT EMUNAH FEELS LIKE

WHEN you go into that space

And delve into it

The light of hashem

Is infiltrating into their souls you start to experience this opening into a deeper space

Kabbala

The world being awakened

Just like you can’t distinguish between the raw material and the glass

They are not the same thing

They are literally integrated

SOMETIMES YOU HAVE A STATE THAT THE KODESH

ANTAGONIZES WITH THE CHOL

I.e. Eretz yisrael

The rabbis say “ this is not kedusha”

It impoverishes those who are building

What is drawn from that

That the physical and the people engaged with the physical

Its subtlety

And the lights of OBLIGATION

START KNOCKING

Those people feel pushed

And they push back

And the physicality trying to pull

And the spirituality loses its vitality

The reaction is chutzpa

When there’s a battle

Well I’m just mundane

So the kodesh people just don’t engage

You need all the people together

Inasmuch as the mundane strengthen itself

Finding something deeper

Prepares itself

From its very mundane characteristic

It starts to open up this new opening

In the end of the day hkodesh et chovain

the kodesh will demand

And will come knocking on the door

I NEED SOMETHING

Not surprising so much of Israelis go to India

How can you be building the land

And not involved in spirituality

Through the holy power of kedusha

Will be so strengthened and elevated

Develop our ability to tap into Elokut

Will be so strong

That the mundane reality will submerge under it

Will enter its insides

And will be swallowed up of mundaneness

And that which is left in tzion

WITH BE KADOSH

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The mundane becomes so mundane

And you end up with the inner place and mundane-ness

After a certain amount of years of mundane Israel

It gets to a place

Where the ruach of the nature

I need something more

WE NEED TO SUBMERGE IN THE KEDUSHA

SEE EVERYONE NEKUDOT TOVOT

Even in people, the beauty, their desire for truth

And not seeing hashem for a harsh Gd

When we tap into it

And then the people involve in chushmiut

Start to connect

Body image

If the body is higher than the soul

Oh not my body!

If we are seeing our bodies like that

When we are talking tzniut

Ideologically is showing what important

If we are thinking “my body is NOT SOMETHING IS SOMEthing I don’t want to focus on

The TZURA ELEVATES MORE

If we see our bodies under its parochet

Like a sefer torah

MY BODY IS A VESSEL IN THE SOUL

ITS BEAUTIFUL

IT’S A SEFER TORAH FOR MY SOUL

The claf of a sefer torah is always covered

It’s so holy

Then you see it and its woah!

If you see it all the time you are being mezaltzel

The body is vibrating with the soul

When a secular person is being natural with their body

They are covering up but not just covering up their insecurities

They resonate

Greeks chomer is separated

Chanuka is the longest night

I can say in the darkest night of my life that there too is is Hashem

In the most physical act

I can look my torah

I can see the lights of ohr haganuz

If I can see the beauty in my body

The Havaya in my life

Yesh borai OLAM REALITY

YAVAN YOUR RIGHT ITS BEAUTIFUL

YOU ARE RIGHT

ITS BEAUTIFUL because its Godly

It tells you much more of the system of creation

There is order in the chaos

Once a day

What is the spiritual nature of it

And doing the inspiration

Visualizing the integration

Lg: people can sit in their chomer and be fine

I’m not a spiritual person 9:29

I’m good where I am

Let’s have pizza and ice cream

By leading into our own

CHOMER /TZURA

The ultimate transformation

At the moment there’s a disassociation

There’s the spiritual people

And those into their house and cars

Me looking after my kids.

I found the integration

When I see them interacting with their job

They are just not spiritual

Oh but job is spiritual

I just want to talk about spiritual stuff

If I can see the physical parts of my life

When I see them talking about their things

I can feel the BEAUTY IN THEIR LIFE

I am not DEMANDING THEY BECOME SPIRITUAL

NO WE ARE TALKING THE SAME LANGUAGE

Not just spiritual people and not

For people who are spiritual

It’s scary for us to face the mundane parts of life

Nir menussi: The body being higher that the soul

Vayetzei

Chaya Sara: the body being higher than the soul

Ohhhh. What if it’s not about dissociating from our body

But finding that they too are holy

When we are with others that don’t see it from that perspective

Partly because we connect with their mundane

When they talk about their job

They see beauty in their job

Wow they love this thing that I know is spiritual and physical

Such a shift!!!!!!!!

Tefillah:

Hashem give us guidance

To not be afraid of the mundane

Find the integrations

May it happen on a national level so fast

We all start hearing each other

Hearing the song of the universe.

Rav Kook 12-3

How big are we willing to experience

Part of living in galut

Theres a ideal of thinking of the mundane is normal

Geula the mundane things are the most spiritual reality

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO DREAM FOR A BIGGER PICTURE OF THE WORLD

How does Rav Kook know me?

If you’re tapped into the whole pic, then we meet rav kook

He was at the point where everyones depth reached each other

In a place where all is inter included

WHAT IS THE CONTENT OF THE HISTALKUT HARUCHANIT

What’s the deeper perspective of ruchaniut, this understanding and scanning

Of LITERALLY EVERYTHING together

The place where everything is included

This is the unique nature of the spiritual vision of the world

Where intellectual and spiritual shift

Intellectual perspective is constantly engaged with specific details

Its with difficulty that you manage to bring together to a one unified whole

The people who are designated for seeing things in a ruchnius

They are connected

It is with big and deep pain

That they feel constricted

Whether it is because of habit

Or people around us

We are forced to engage with business

Whether spiritual or actual

When we are focused to look at one part

Its painful

Want to tap into the inner aspect

WHEN YOU GET INTO YISHUV HADAAS

THEN THEY REALIZE actually the necessity to use each detail instrument to get to the bigger perspective

And in their nefesh heart of hearts

Bound to this place

Using these instruments to reveal the light of the purpose

Its saying what does it mean to be a deep soul

To see the world from a inner perspective

If im a neshama that goes into the inner perspective of the world

Instead of getting stuck in detail

I see in that place its ALL ONE

CERTAIN MOMENT IN A DVEIKUT MOMENT

OHHH

THERES nothing left out

The inner gaula

I can look at my life through the details

This situation

Spiritual work forcus on the details

The goal is to get to that place

To the inner simplicity

The inner wholeness

I AM

I EXIST

THERES room for all the details in a deeper and rich way

Then OH THAT’S PART OF THE WHOLE

Torah also

Get involved in theis piece of the Torah details

But the point is, there has to be the place where its connected to a deeper place to Hashem

No matter with path in Judaism, its not about one detail

If you go in one detail in depth and you will find the whole Torah

Brisk approach and rav Kotler:

Reb Shlomo
Rav Kotler: seem further part seems so connected

Brisk: so deep within one piece

EITHER WAY I AM CONNECTED TO THE WHOLENESS

So easy to get caught up in the details

Enter calm

Enter simplicity

No details left out from the bigger picture.

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DH: I learn torah and then I hear it right after that:

Your neshama found the CHIDDUSH TORAH

YOUR UNIQUE TORAH that inspires you on a soul level

You will be able to see that point no matter what Torah it is

HR: spontaneous: I focused on the leaves, it looked so gorgeous. Thank you for that spark. That gift.

Washing dishes: washing a dishes. Focused watching the water, shapes, the beauty and light anywhere.

100% focus of what we are looking at without another thought.

MEYASHEV HADAAT mind is tapped into one thought. It becomes no longer detail

It becomes holographic

Theres a possibility that you get so drowned into the overall picture, that you end up darkening the specificity of each detail itself.

Oh its all one, there will be a frustration not to engage in the detail and yet, each detail contains the bigger picture

If you tap into that detail, instead of blocking it out. You can tap into it with a much more and vital vision

Gedola elyona A HIGHER BIGNESS. The detail in your life – not like a dish you can wash and feel the beauty

The deepest heights infiltrates every place. Theres nothing too mundane

When you connect to each detail and you start to shine the light into each detail

Start off with the pratim

Sometimes you see the leaf and wow

Sometimes its tapping into the detail

The experience of stress: the beauty of what that feeling is

WHAT HOW DOES MY BODY KNOW what my feeling is

FIRST ENRICHEN THE EXPERIENCE OF THE DETAILS FIRST

Then that will open up our capacity our soul to this freedom space

To look at the bigger picture

The pleasure of our soul

That is yearning and drawing

For the expansion of the river of bina

From the bigger perspective

Only after we come to this madrega of acquiring the details

When we are able t0 experience the difference in a beautiful way

Your spirit will access these values that are way more elevated then all the detail

Beauty of working through each layer

The place where we are going together

To METAKEN ET HAKOL

You need to go through every part of your life and find the beauty there

And work through the issue

It expands your capacity to see the bigger picture.

Sometimes we get so stuck in the details we forget we want the bigger pictue

The shoresh of the ruchani stronger source of spirituality

That’s filled with the freshness of life

Spreads out branches

The crazy amount of details in our life

Rubui anafim

And sometimes we are so tired from holding space for all of that

Then what you need to do IS GRASP THE SOURCE WITHIN YOU

I AM

KOCHA MITCHADESH

Then your strength is renewed

Panim chadashim at Sheva brachos

Theres a love and newness

Then the branches start to flower

When you are stuck to all the detail no capacity to bring them to the world

This is the foundation

The connecting point

All the highest secrets takes the foundation of all the existences of Havaya vrava

This opinion against that opinion and it strengthens it in the foundation

And it brings out the ideal way

Of a tradition and a way of living that reflects Hashem

This is our vision of geula

And how to tap into this in our life

When we are stuck

Either tap into the beauty of the detail

Or

About finding the shoresh makor, quieting the mind

Then you are in your strength and then its new now

This is the image of the geula world

Not midda, situation that is left out

Not anymore that im scared of the details

Every detail is part of the picture

Where is the space that’s deep enough to hold the things that are coming together

TAPPING IN AND FEELING THAT PLACE

YOU ARE LITTERALY LOVING THEM WITH A PANIM CHADASHA

This is core to everything rav Kook does

Looking at people who are different

Nothing in front of his eyes that he would say that’s not good

Sechel me kol dvar

Was not just a concept, was his soul!!!

The ideal spirituality is not engaged with the reality of separation. It only recognizes and gives importance to the all emcompassing unity.

Theres no detail without looking at it as a bigger picture. In such a world you can only see things in their essence. There is no such thing as absolute bad. What is raa? Theres no klal bmitzut raa: raa IS A PIECE THAT APPEARS NOT PART OF THE KLAl

A negative thought reflects its not part of the bigger picture

When you see it as part of the bigger picture

You’ve included it in part of the bigger picture

CHEIT separateness from yourself, from Hashem

All the sins is taking us away from this perspective

Hashem saw all he made and it was VERY GOOD.

TO INCLUDE GENENNOM

Tov meod beyond good

Everything there!!

Yaakov TAAM

EASY TO FALL INTO im spiritual and im in my bubble

And im marrying Rochel my type of soul

Leah I cant deal of her

I don’t need esav

Only when he finally faces esav alone with the saar shel esav

The biggest separatness

He was able to becaome Yisrael

That he loved leah

AM YISRAEL IS ABOUT GETTING TO THE WHOLE

BUT IN ORDER TO GET THERE we need YAAKOV ISH TAM

The inner simplicity

In one moment of simplicity

It just is.

If im getting caught up in thoughts in life

Chacham and tam

Look at this shoe its amazing

My house is my palace

Sometimes we need that simplicity

Helps us tap into the core

Its only closing your eyes

Experience in a visible way

Throught the presentation of the secret, impact of your life

The most highest and deepest of clarity of understandings is the simplest of the simple

Answers of the world

Through Havaya

I am

Tap in

Bring into daas

The place of contrast

Panim chadashot

Tap into the simplicity

The hardest thing the pnimiut hazot the

INSIDE OF THE INSIDE

Includes exceeding amounts

All the worlds before you

Tapped into the inner space

All the worlds right there

The 1000s of things we do everyday

FIND THE PSHITUS

TAP INTO THE BIGGER PICTURE

YOU ARE listenen from the lower worlds

You hear the higher worlds

As long as you are listening

You become sharper

As long as your channels are opening more

This is the deepest joy

The joy of the SIMPLICITY OF TAM

GIVES US SHLEIMUS, GENTLENESS

Sometimes when you are in all the details

I can tap into simplicity

Rabbi Nachman: davening naase vnishma

Into a space theres on next secont

When you tap into the NOW

THEN all the details come out in a whole beautiful way

The inner simplicity inner quiet

Is way higher than mussar

The tradition of ethics from the torah

All the musar of how to conduct ourselves

Are rooted from the streams pouring out from the TAM

SIMPLICTY

AD ATA , till now

I just exist now

Then from that space that’s where all the ethics

Bad: that’s taking us from the space

Yachranut: straightness

It becomes much more simple

This is the nachlaa of Yaakov

The simplicity of sitting in my tent right now

Today

Everyone’s battling about their opinions all the time

What about

I DON’T KNOW

I AM

JUST BEING SIMPLE

If you were to bring up all the controversial questions

He would say lets dance

Are you serving Hashem, me too!!!

If we stop resources in the source of our source

That we forget the source

Geula will be all the soucee of the spiritual ecosystems

I can tap int it all

Tap into Rav kook because he reminds you of geula

If we find our internal geula

From that space

All the details in my life and world

Connected to building to that space of Hashem echad

All of this illuminates, stands up in this higher state withing the essence of existence of joy

When theres a sense of something deeper (nature) real joy.

And to the extent of these rays of spirituality are deep and true and beautiful and strong

The extent that these rays infiltrate in us

The simcha that never stops

A SOFT JOY THERE IN OUR NESHAMA

The ray comes from the source of atzilut

What you tap into a torah, reality of hashem, meditation , that tefilla, than not only are you experience ruchniut

You are experiencing the pleasure of Hashem.

Mahavata hasbaa shel torah. Rich and beautiful. Infinite joy

Chay bchayim filled with eternity

You start to sense and recognize

Oh the simplicity is there too

THE JOY OF A QUIET MIND

Imagine a world living like this

Every reality theres a detail that theres a joy coming in from the ruchaniut

Even if you soul is wounded with physical and spiritual pains

It doesn’t stop giving you inner pleasure to the soul

Even in the middle of the darkness

Even if your body feels shattered

And you feel the oneg moment

And you know where that pleasure is drawn out from

YOUR torah, intentions

And just like it exist in every individual it exists in am Yisrael

Constantly weaning from the sweetness of the internal holiness

That SWEETENS LIFE JUST A BIT

Brings down an inner reality that is fixed

Then the pains of the jewish collective soul gets fixed

The sparks of light get sent signals to every individual to what they can take

That wont destroy their system

To the extend that the binding of your essence is connect to the klal

The HIGHER KEDUSHA

TAP INTO THE INNER POINT

Every detail and argument … each side is beautiful

There cant be a Yaakov without an esav

When we feel judgement

That’s a consequence

That in that moment

Hashem is a source of everything

You’ve pushed away the light that is holiness

Who can stop the Gdly high love of the survivors / CHASIDEI KODESH

THESE holy chasidim the straightness of their heart like the spirit of purity of the pleasure of gan eden

And with this powerful love that cant be stopped

Like the waves of the sea

The neshama is storming with the magnitude of the noam ELYON

AND THE DISIRE OF THIS PLEASURE of pleasure

Expands the world content

And our souls middot

And in that moment

As we are feeling the love of Hashem

I am in the gate to open up for all neshamas to be kodesh

Any one who has contact of strong ones of Hashem

Us

They are elevated

To believe we have the capacity

Your whole body crashed

But you are getting oneg from the moment

Then kol ha torah mussar mitzvos actions learing

It comes and clarifies and clears all the stumbling blocks

Then the love of the infinity of all the worlda

Expand over all the experiences of the life of all the world

All the paths and branches

Individual and klal

Until the judgement is no longer a judgement

Pain agony and sighing

Ther rul is Tzadik and straightness of the nations bulmim yashaim

--

Tam and met same letters

Sfat emet: wings like the techelet. He took his wings to fly

You can see it as a branch or see it as a way to hashem

Question:

Hashem echad

Reb shlomo:

Esav kissed yakov. In that moment wasn’t esav sone yakov

Hashem echad

The secular guy

He didn’t spend his day working out on the beach. There has be someone preparing every detail the biggest mistake we make as people

Anav haPesula

Non kosher

To say Im just like everyone else

We rid outself of our

Often our crashes are deeper

Its not we get in a higher place

Rav moshe Weinberger

There’s many people

Happy follow hashems middos

You are not saying that

YOU WANT DVEIKUS

IF you compare yourself to other people

¾ people say how can you teach rav kook

Have you seen his Hebrew

Rav hahalut piezsensnas brother

Geula and desire for everyone

The average sould

Every detail is connected to the whole

Who woke we up

Whose consioucness opened up another soul

More people are connecting to chassidus

Connecting to torah and gemorah in this way

When we start to see this

Whats ticking

Hashem gives us the capacity

To tap into the bigger picure

Even in the katnus

Just one jug just burning

Find the ability

Souls connected to this oneg

To fnd the way to share

It doesn’t need to be treacherous

That the world can see and hear

Rav Kook ARETZ HAKODESH

12-10-20 / 24 Kislev Erev Chanukah

Chanukah Meditation: The light IS in the darkness

We tend to think that the darkness helps me access the light

No... we must enter INTO

the darkness because that whole dark is light!

Give yourself permission

to explore it more freely

As we enter Chanuka...

May the sparks of geula light

Enter us

Transforming the darkness

into light

...and as we receive these sparks

Allow our neshama do its thing

And not be worried about

what it is

and what it isn’t

Whatever downloads Hashem

is choosing for me

in this moment

to freely receive them

and explore them

to not be afraid

of the creativity

in the moment.

I Embrace it.

__________

The subtle awareness…

When we are able to meet that with a greater sense of openness

Something happens

On the one hand the way to connect to it in a pure way

You connect to Torah and Mitzvos and Your family in a whole way

Though we don’t need to be bound by the ropes of social norms

When people are just talking about gashmius

And I want something deeper

A deeper world

In order to get there

We don’t need to be concerned what it looks like from a social perspective

Because your neshama is totally free

To explore different realities

What the pasuk means in a more free way

THAT SPIRIT OF OPENNESS can get strangled by the ropes of society

That make what is the deepest holiness profane

Ie kriat Torah in shul

Diminished down to that’s the time we don’t talk in shul

It can strangle the freedom where I neshama wants to go

Because our neshama comes from the world of freedom

Freedom from AMBITION

A freedom to have a RATZON

Of moshiach

To see and connect to the words of the prophets

I trust my sense

And be willing to explore that

For this creativity

Rabbi Nachman talks about HOLY IMAGINATION

Theres a side of koach dimyon

To make my pain to feel like the whole world

Like a DISEASE TO MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD FREAK OUT

Nothing like feeling that sensation

Drawing on it

And say I FEEL DEEPER

If I can use poetry, how can I describe this

With the freedom of neshama and let it explore

THIS IS THE BEGINNINGS OF YETZIRA

To the extent of the chofesh freedom

So too will this deep experience of KEDUSHA MEANS

I know chanukah is holy

But I don’t feel it

Allow ourselves the FREEDOM OF ALLOWING OUR SOUL TO EXPLORE

YOUR experience of life will be elevated

The KNOCK OF THE SOUL

I AM SENSING a desire for something

Or

Create inside yourself

With TRUTH AND SIMPLICITY

WHAT IS MY NESHAMA TELLING ME?

You take your capacity for ruchnius

From potential to active

Without falsehood

With simplicity

WHAT IS MY INNER WORLD SAYING

HITBONENUT

WHAT IS MY SOUL TELLING ME.

FROM THESE sparks

The finest light will illuminate the world

And from these pieces of inner truth

That the greatness of truth will appear.

This is a major avoda

ITS NOT JUST A CUTE THING TO DO ON THE SIDE

What is going on

Be willing for a visualization

Not a side avoda

Not just a thing I do AND NOT TALK ABOUT

A DEEP AVODA

Because our neshama is from Hashem

And what it is telling us its from Hashem

Inner Creativity

Our ruach , part of our neshama

Start to create these inner images

Creations

We see the angel

Sitting on the rocks

Creating a creation

Its flying and starts to come close to us

And reveals itself in our neshamas

Behold he comes and we greet him with

The magnitude of shalom and love

And it recognizes our love

In a pure and gentle form

And stronger than what we usually recognize

When we are stuck in our physical reality

We go into this space

What is Hashem telling me

And there’s a malach

Carving on a rock

Instead of seeing my heart as a diamond

You visualize your inner world

And you finish the Yetzira

And sometimes it stops in the middle

And you blink and its gone

The angel flies away

And it elevates

And goes to the the heights

And then we engage with Torah

And middot tovot

And then we tie the image

The experience that you get when you visualize something and that sense that you had

When you visualize

Its more

Its real

And you bring it into your avoda

Strengthen your strength

With Hashem giving us this light

And yeshua

And we feel this in our inner world

Exchanging matzavim

Inner strength and weakness MEET EACH OTHER

There’s a sense of love AND ANXIETY MIXING

AND EXISTING TOGETHER

There’s light and darkness in a mixture

This comes

Because

We are not there yet

Then we need to ENTER A STATE OF TSHUVA

Hashem, I’m sorry I believed im so small

Stuck in my pain

And the teshuva gets bigger

And in this state

The ratzon gets larger

WE START TO ELEVATE

GOING THROUGH THE MIXTURE

Over the flesh and its blocks

We start to elevate

A tiny bit more over falsehoods

And the strangling of the environment

In truth

You are connecting to the emet of Hashem

And light strengthens

And life is ELEVATED

The one thing that is impossible to do.

Its impossible to do one thing

To stop the process of YETZIRA

From someone who is naturally at YOTZERET

When you get a spiritual tiredness

And it becomes irritating

The ability to tap into something spiritual

Is hard work

But its right there

Hshem is creating the world effortlessly

It doesn’t require a whole deal of effort

It has to be hard

Then we are putting one ourself a layer and another layer

We are putting on ourself anxiety

What if this is your NATURAL STATE

Our tefilla

Creating an inner image

Yerushaliyim ircha

We are BUILDING AN IMAGE

Not being difficult

You haven’t gone through all the meditations to get to dveikus

Being NATURAL can be problematic

The teshuva: is the ANAVA, HUMILITY

YOU don’t need the meditations.

It’s a whole hard work

Its actually just there

(Increasing daas increases pain: mishlei)

Sometimes I am asking my pain what is it

Creating based on your inner flow

The more you connect to torah

And Emunah

The more the creativity is in the heights of emet

If there’s pain coming up

Interestingly it comes up when you try to force it

I want to get there

If you are following

ITS JUST THERE

What is my neshama telling me right now.

Someone who has the capacity to be a yotzer

Must BE INVOLVED

IMPOSSIBLE TO CLOSE HER IN

SHIDCHI / ground level learning alone

Shalhevet haneshama

The flame of the neshama just goes

Im not trying to create

Ie im reading rashi and I say somethings there

Stop it from its process

The expansion of though is the constant demand

That every mindful person

Meditator

Creative thinker

Your neshama is constantly demanding it from you

A more expansive thought

Learn pshat….

But it will be expansive

When you are learning shitchi

Learn it as it is about to birth something in you

And you are creating a schedule of learning

(men need the objectivity, not a process of Emunah, its emet)

When you are trying to constrict your mind with the

On the ground-ness

You CREATE THE ILLNESS

OF THOUGHT BEING PAINFUL

WITH EVERY power we need to be redeemed from it

To take it out of mitzraim

When the seed rots

New life emerges

It sometimes starts with pain

Not pain to join

When one level rots

One building is being destroyed

You need to build a new one

A natural level

Bitul

Let go of what your assumptions are

And then something new comes in

1. Surrendering bitul

2. Allowing the old to rot

These build our creativity

Rav Katz has she been to a lot of therapy

No surprise

This is starting of navua

When you’ve been elevated to that level

And you come back to ground

And you feel your middos

What kind of neshama is creative?

It’s the free neshama

What happens is

Like in the body

When something new comes in

Your body has to grow and stretch

When this FREE SPIRIT HAPPENS

OUR system has to adjust to that.

Its possible that because the neshama expands

The pains of the body increases

You just have more stuff coming up

“the more chochma, the more kaas

More daas is adds pain

Know that when this happens

When this pain comes up

It doesn’t diminish daas

It only increases its flair

The birth pangs of yetzira

All its vessels and strengths

All the vessels of our body and capacities of our soul

In order to expand our neshama

Until the heights of sheifot

To make the wills of the body

The neshamas will so it all fits together

And the light of life

The life force

With all its capacity for sheleimut

One second of moment of anger

Is lifefore of his will

A MOMENT OF ANGER

The pains of the body

And suffering of the spirit

Like a prison

They add more pleasantness

The the ohr haelyon

Hashems the ultimate yetzir

Every midda just breaks from the enormity of the burden

Each time a midda breaks open

And each one meats another

And unites

With the yetzira

And we can’t get the words out

The ONEG OF TOV

THE PLEASURE OF GOOD

The experience of experiencing Hashem

In a more certain way

All this stuff

Is sprouting open

Then you will skip over like an ayal

The tzipia/ vision of the future

That is so clarified now

A secure trusted reality

In your mind

So alive then it starts to enliven us

With the rays of the harmony

Of its lights

Before its revealed

Then he says chassidut is the beginning of navua

Why does chassidut talk to us

Because our neshama is knocking

One step is missing

WHAT IF OUR NESHAMA HAS NEVUA

Chanuka

You must have holy imagination

Yehudis said, that was only 12 hours ago

Machshava map

What did that feel like

Create a rishimu

Looking at the candle

I have the capacity to draw light into me

What does that look like?

The beginnings of nevua

We want a seed a gaarin

Vis-à-vis coming into an age where nevua is a reality

Where NEVUA AND TEFILLA MEET

Not about my emotions

But opening up to what emotions look like

When we dream of geula

The more we are willing to go there

And mamash enter that place

The tzipiat ha yeshua

Did YOU LONG/ TZIPIA FOR GEULA

Did you visualize it

I may not know

My neshama is trying to paint for me an image

YOU ARE A BIG SOUL

DREAM

THIS is your neshama

Not a RANDOM THING THAT IT HAPPENS TO ME

NOT FORCING IT

The more we are open to these inner knockings

With more emuna

We can go there more frequently and get more access points

Chanuka

You don’t get answers you already knew

Its chinuch

What are we beginning

A beginning

When you’re at the end of WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW

Our ruchaniut doesn’t have to be hard

Its there

Ashrecha

We tend to think that the darkness helps me access

No you’ve entered int what the darkness is

The light is in the darkness

That whole dark is light!!!

Give permission to do it more freely

In that exploration

Tefilla

Little sparks of geula light

Enter us

To see the darkness is not a point of light

Get downloads

And let our neshama do its thing

And not be worried about what it is and what it isn’t

Whatever Hashem is choosing for me in the moment

And not be afraid

Of the creativity of the moment.

Embrace it.