Parshas Balak - The pride of the person will lower him

“The pride of the person will lower him”

Ultimately Bilaam was a great person
he was blessed with elevated prophetic powers
he wanted to curse H’s people
He calls H’ “H’ Elokai”
He had a personal relationship with H’

how did he go from such greatness to such lowness?
Why would he try to do what H’ hated?

His pride was his downfall.
He said, “The thing that H’ will put into my mount, I will say…”
was an expression of anochius / gaiva

Bilaam identified so much with his “I” / ego / anochius
His real intension was “I will speak”
next to the the awareness it was with the permission of H’
with great cynicism he states “How can I cause something H’ has cursed?”

His gaiva goes out of all boundries
He pretends as if he’s actually on the highest level of H’
Even when he lowers himself (one-eyed person) reveals his limitations
he returns to his prideful declarations
the one who knows the opinion of the One above Daas Elyon

The Tdadik Rav Shalom Ber of Lubavitch writes
someone who learns Torah and davens with pure intention
He knows and is attached
Until he comes to a level where his soul rules his body

if he would then fall into gaiva
it would bring him down and lower him
until it would destroy and lose every good aspect he has acquired to this point

a person can rise himself up
ONLY when lowers him self and he mevatel’s himself
and then H’ will lift him up and raise him and the Shechina will dwell within him

all of the learning and mitzvahs a person does, if its done with gaiva
he will fall

the only way to maintain the work we have done is when a person lowers him self -
mevatel to H’, to Talmudei chachamim, Daas Torah

we need to mevatel our self (as opposed to Bilaam who thought he was big)

H’ speaking through you
meaning you are making your self
an empty vessel who is nothing
just receiving the light of HKB”H

Rav Asher Freund on Parshas Balak

Rochel Weiman