Wearing Your Crown

We are not beautiful for what we are
but for what we are becoming.
We need a womb
and a guardian to keep it safe

The moon’s diminishment
All the light will come into the darkness
We are at the seashore of consciousness
Ever expanding the light

Receptivity
to the Torah’s light
is feminine.
Our glow
Our grow

We are leaders
We are generous with sharing the light
Like climbing a ladder,
we are blessed with another rung of light
in abundance;

as we help others

come into their fullness

A story of the terrible tailor…

Stretch your hand to make it fit… your leg…

“What a good tailor!!” they say

Am I pretty enough?

Am I a good enough mother?

Hashem is the tailor!

He created you!

Maybe you’re not belonging

is the problem with the container.

What is my “Ani”?

Ani is one of the Divine Names

What is my essence?

The agent of transformation

Why are women prone to getting all bent up?

We are Bina: we take things in.

We absorb.

We take our own energy and weave it against ourselves.

That’s why we need to support each other

to help the Shechina rise

and say, to one another;

“I wish you can see yourself through MY eyes.”

Chava was not a messianic name

more like the “messy”-anic.

We hold her tikkun

In order to get her to where she…

where we … are going.

She was created twice

Onkelus “chivia”

Chaya > Chava > Chedva (23 – 19)

She regains what she lost

To Chedva

The 4 that she lost.

The journey is the hidden

de-light

Nachash = Moshiach (358)

Lili-t = Layla

Rising above it

Bringing light to dark

That is how we do it.

Coming out of the cocoon

is how the butterfly becomes

itself

We are afraid to be vulnerable

to share our struggle

Is it safe?

Is it noble?

We are ashamed

Why do I struggle so?

Isolated.

And yet together

we are weaving the story

of femininity

When malchus is low

Torah is low

Shechina is low

That’s when the evil

can suckle from her.

Exile

We focus on the tza’ar

of the lost Princess

But the one who suffers the most

is the King, Hashem

When we want to transform

We need to know what is possible.

When you look for validation

you have already shrunk.

You no longer exist in a boundless space of truth

but are limited by the dimensions

of another’s perception.

Inside of you is the whole truth.

Stand in your wholeness

Make it somatic knowing;

unshakable.

That is your crown.

If compliments fuel you

Criticism will crush you!!!

Lightning then thunder

Male and female

So much joy in not already being perfect

and evolving

It is all unfolding

Just in time

Perfectly placed in your life

Embrace it!

Malchus is about co-creation

Hashem is perfect;

He has chosen to make Himself vulnerable

So we can grow to meet Him.

There are 7 stages of a woman’s life

Collectively, individually

Hashem gives us real power to make choices

We have real power.

Take back your power

where you have given it away

I HAVE CO-CREATED THIS

through MY INNER MATRIX OF BELIEFS;

Who or what have I been blaming?

Wow, there’s something I’m doing to create this story.

Turn from receiving the situation and acting upon it

Where am I disempowered?

Where am I not in truth?

Perceive my essence of love and nurturing;

Isolate the faulty code

and re-script

How do we heal the hurting feminine?

It was the pain of rejection;

She was a high woman

We incorporate her essence

She has a place

right here.

Now.

Dishes, homework, supper.

Chava shnia

Chava shelishit

Messianic Woman

Build the vessels and fill them with light

Be in-joy

Expand.

Reclaimed yourself in all dimensions

From Daughter

to Partner

to Mashpia

She had a false belief

that Adam had to receive her

She didn’t know

That she’s the influencer

Woman will be the

Crown of her Husband

Stop looking for validation

She thought she was either below or equal

Yet she is

Above.

How are you going to show up
WITH YOUR OWN SCRIPT…
Wearing your crown?

It doesn’t matter if I’m praised or criticized
I am stable in my crown
and my light;
This is my identity.

Often the thing that I fear becomes active

in the act of my fearing it.

Gevurah is crafting the vessels

My gevurah is not mean but kind.

It preserves the life energy.

Gives viability.

I can exude the love in my heart.

Malchus Affimations:

I am worthy.

I am enough.

Honoring healthy boundaries is peaceful.

I don’t need to be afraid of others.

I only fear Hashem.

I am safe, Hashem is with me.

I can put on my crown.

I have permission to have the light contained in my own keylim (vessels)

I am shepherding my own soul.

-RW, notes from thenexus.org Malchus Retreat
with Rebbetzin Tamar Taback12-1-19