Hisbodedus Ein Od Milvado - Bilvavi
BS”D
Personal Hisbodedus
based on awe & love for Hashem
to strengthen
Ein Od Milvado Consciousness
Please help me to want only what You want Hashem, so that all of my heart and all of my soul and all of my might are earnestly devoted to Torah, avoda, chesed and mitzvahs
Please save me from the boiling chaos of image, sensation and imagination that is based on natural bondage to the messages of the yetzer hara.
I recognize that You are the Only Power and Source of vitality and that it is Your compassion alone that is concealed in everything we experience.
I do not wish to fall into natural tendencies and instincts that seek vitality and survival based on the necessary illusion of how it feels to me – You give us real free will to recognize You and to have faith that our survival depends only on You, no matter how much the messages from the necessary illusions stimulate false belief about me being in control of survival or the attainment of my own desires and will.
I purge these thoughts, which are based on the past, on experience, and on learning, before they form my plan for the future so that You Hashem Alone – the true life force within everything - may work through the opening of this emunah and have spiritual delight and so that Your Compassion thereby be revealed.
I recognize the strength concealed in the messages as You Alone, and shower love upon You for this opportunity to be a vessel to bring compassion into the world by doing so.
I recognize that it is You Who has never changed and is all compassionate that is concealed as the truth, the substrate, underneath these strong feelings.
Please renew within me the pure life force bestowed upon me in utero, before there was any natural comparisons and thinking into which that pure life force became entangled, so that I may reveal You. Your goodness has not changed, and may that Your goodness be revealed in the world.
I awaken heartfelt love for Hashem that is innate in the soul, my soul that is made in Your Image. Please may the recognition (awe) and heartfelt love for
Hashem that I am showering with devotion and passion towards You engender Your Compassion to save me from being over-taken and dragged into the darkness of the messages.
Please may I be a sturdy vessel through which You may bring Your compassion from those messages into the world through Torah, avoda, chesed and mitzvahs.
Thank you for this opportunity to participate in a creative act of bringing Your Infinite light from where it is concealed in the chaos into the world through recognizing You and loving You.
May it be the will of Hashem to reveal the Moshiach.
EIN OD MILVADO
These prayers are inspired by the writings of the Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh including Parts 6-9 of Bilvavi Mishkan Evneh and the Q and A
Short prayer
to cry out from
Ein Od Milvado
Consciousness
May it be the will of Hashem that I want only Hashem’s will.
May it be the will of Hashem that Hashem rule over us in His mercy.
May it be the will of Hashem that my repentance should return light to Hashem and give pleasure to Hashem.
May it be the will of Hashem that this light should destroy all impurity from the world.
May it be the will of Hashem that I reveal the Divine image.
May it be the will of Hashem that through recognizing that there is nothing other than Him, may there be healing to all the ill, of Yisrael.
May it be the will of Hashem that He reveal Mashiach.